11/03/03 ~ I'm mad at my roommate... who throws my stuff away... But with that aside... I feel really shitty... but I have to do a portrait for class... I don't feel like it... I want illustratior... or photoshop... I want something... so that I can do my comics both better and faster...

10/23/03 ~ I loves me blog/updates page. I shall soon work on the site, I promise. College is so much harder then high school, so I never have time to draw anymore. At least not anything I want to. I have to do paintings, and computer projects, and the like, all for a grade... In 2 more semesters I can sub and make real money... Leaving even less time for my own projects... Why?

10/12/03 ~ Nevermind

10/09/03 ~ My boyfriend broke up with me over the internet. I don't feel like drawing right now. I miss Cammy. I want to go see him. I have a test tomarrow...
Why?

10/6/03 ~ Tomarrow I have to go to court because I got caught going 84(ish) in a 55 zone. I thought it was a75 zone! I thought that the speed limit on the highway was 75. Nevertheless... I have decided that Captain Catholic shall become a web comic. Whenever I get time from my busy schedual (I am a college kid you know). I'm in class and I have to go, but I might actually get a chance to work on the site tonight.

10/02/03 ~ I need Adobe Illustratior. If anyone knows where I can get it, preferably for free, please tell me. Also, I think I left my zip disk at the computer lab...

9/25/03 ~ I might actually get some work done today. I'm putting off writing this speech that I have to write...

9/24/03 ~ I feel sad beyond recognition, but I have gotten the Fool's Paradise done.

9/17/03 ~ My new site goes up today. yay! Parking sucks here at college... it sucks quite a bit. I never, ever get to park. I feel strange today, as I just did an entire painting, and the turpentine is making my head hurt...

Halloween's coming up... the decorations made me happy. I can even stand the crappyness of college (and the fact that I think my man's abandoned me...) now, for a while, until I get really depressed again! Yay! Happy Haloween everyone!

9/1/03 ~ Happy Labor Day! In celebration, I worked like a dog (I just typed god 3 times and had to backspace to correct it... I sleepy...) on my homework... I just remembered that I have math test tomarrow... night night... must scan and... color images I drew... for site... tomarrow... yes... must study math sleep...

8/27/03 ~ I know that most of my posts lately have been, "college sucks"... but... damn does college suck. Socially I feel like grade school all over again. Mentally, I'm drained. All my classes are rediculously hard. I must go now...

8/26/03 ~ College sucks... I have 2 projects and a paper due tomarrow. I've been working non-stop since 10:00 this morning, and I feel horrible. I took a break because it was time for food, but I still have to read 2 chapters and write a paper for communications... Yup... I wanna' go home!

8/21/03 ~ Sorry I haven't updated... College sucks... I'm wondering if I'm ever going to be able to get this stupid site up and running... Plus I never get to do anything anymore... plus, I still have no friends... plus... college just plain sucks. I didn't think an art degree would take any work at all, but I have to get off here and go do 5 thumbnails before my next class. I will try my damnedest to do some work on here tonight, as I need an outlet, and will have plenty of time, since I have to go to a floor meeting at 8pm insted of going home for the weekend early, like I wanted to... yeah... college sucks... I guess it's something that I have to suffer through though... they keep telling us that there will be money waiting on the other side... Good computers, good houses (with air conditioners that work) good cars... and the like... I want an air conditioner... *sniff*

8/5/03 ~ I can't believe this... I have created a brand new site as a haven. It's almost my 18th birthday. I can't stand it. I've recently become drowned in a pool of self loathing the likes of wich I haven't experienced in years... I can't breath... I can't sleep... I can't eat. No one knows how badly I don't want to turn 18. I don't want to grow up so bad... I want to stay home and watch cartoons and draw pictures and play with Cammy for the rest of my life. I took it all for granted until about a week ago when I went to see my room for the start of term... 2 days after my 18th birthday. I have to go to college and start trying my damndest to find a publisher... wich, I won't, and I'll be forced to rely on my teaching degree, getting myself stuck in a high school again, when I wanted so badly to get away. I'll never have money. No one will know my name... and when I die, I'll be gone. I won't leave anything, and there will be no proof that I ever existed. I don't want to face this reality... god... I don't want to face this reality... I also don't want to leave my baby... He's so little, I'm afraid that he's going to forget me... Also, I'm just not suited for college life... I... don't do good in social situations... I suck at anything involving other people. It takes me like, 2 years to make any new friends, and only then if they talk to me first. I have to go to all these mixers and... god, I don't want to... I actually didn't mean to put this stuff on the 'net... I dunno, maybe some of my classmates'll read it and feel sorry for me or something...